…She was leaving another decade
just like a winner
coming off the battlefield…
NN Lambert
A while ago I was celebrating my big birthday, that is why I wrote this short poem.
What a decade it has been…
I left my entire life behind in the name of love and a better tomorrow. I became an immigrant.
I lived in a number of houses, but none of them felt like home.
I got married and over time I found the strength to walk away from something that didn’t serve me anymore.
I became a mum to two beautiful children and learnt how to be a bad-ass octopus on the constant roller coaster ride between heaven and hell.
I ran a high-end business and worked for the minimum wage.
I fell on rock bottom to notice the stars in the deepest darkness. I then received the answer in the scariest of silences.
I was surrounded by people and felt lost and lonely.
I lost people along the way and met new ones.
I walked too far away from myself and went on a challenging journey to find me again. I knew that if I’d ever stopped fighting for my happiness I’d be dead already.
One day I woke up and killed my brain with my heart. I just faced my demons and conquered… myself.
With my heart, mind and eyes opened I was observing this fascinating kind called ‘man’. Then I was found by a spaceman who threw the entire Planet Love under my feet.
I discovered what love really is. I’m a humble student day in, day out…
It feels like for the last eight years I was working my butt off in the goddamn shipyard of life. Then for the last two years or so, I was testing and improving my boat.
Today I’m launching that impressive ship, as I can finally see the horizon and beyond. And throughout the worship and drudgery I gained the right attitude, knowledge and support to get into the open waters in search of further adventures, the truth and Agnieszka I haven’t met yet.
Today I leave the port to go into the deep waters, but as long as I feel the sun on my face and wind in my hair I know, I will feel ALIVE. My loved ones are already waiting on the top deck. I go nowhere without them. My free spirit has already learnt how to revel between them…
Therefore today I celebrate life and people who love me.
I’m not afraid anymore. I’m ready to sail. And in case of a dark wild storm, I know that I can always stop and turn myself into a lighthouse for other lost boats, as in my own light I will find my way home…
